I try not to let what other people do affect me. They're are them and I am me. I like to think that if I affect anyone, it's in a positive manner...and that if it is negative, it's seldom (but justified...after all...I've always had a temper, which only recently i've been learning to control).
Sometimes, you can't help but let what someone does affect you. You don't mean it to, and you fight yourself so much to not let it happen...but it does! Wow i was so furious today!
But I trained today too...I trained hard! I trained with intencity! Most importantly...I trained with passion.
I've realised what drives me...and it's common to what drives most people. It's success! Instant gratification. The feeling of accomplishment!
Frequently, your efforts are acknowledged by your peers that you've done a great job, and it's a top feeling. But at the end of the day, all you have is you! Yourself! You go to bed with whatevers on your mind!
How many times have you gone to bed, lying to yourself? You know...when you say "i'll do this tomorrow, i'll change this, i'll action that" and it never gets done!
Why the fuck did you wait till bed time to think that? Why didn't you get it done in the first place?
Because you're afraid.
For what ever reason you may be afraid for, whether it be afraid of success, getting it wrong, being hurt...WHATEVER? The only thing that really stops you from getting what you want, is yourself.
I'm not going to be the person here saying "yeah you'll get it one day". Bullshit. You'll get it if you want it bad enough. You'll know if you want it bad enough because you will tirelessly work hard for it. You will devote effort for it. You will adapt to the environment so that your best setup to acheive it. Most importantly...you will sacrafice for it.
I wasn't sure where I was going with this when I started writing...and to be honest I still don't. I'm still trying to figure out a title for it!
I did however wanted to point out that (I just figured out the title!) that the common factor in all of this...is YOU! YOU will get what you want, if YOU want it bad enough. Only YOU will know how bad YOU want it!
*insert superman joke here*
You all know what you want...you all know how to attain it. If you be real and honest with yourself, then you can figure out how to acheive what YOU want!
If you think i'm wrong...please tell me. But please...i know your rebuttles:
- "I haven't got much money..."
- "My parents..."
- "I don't have much time..."
- "My dog ate it..."
"I'm afraid..."
Don't be afraid...carpe diem...sieze the fucking day! I don't want to throw too many cliche lines in here but stop listening to the rest of the world...and listen to what your heart says. Fuck some of you might be wrong (and those that hear genocide...please speak to me first) but don't complain about something if you're not going to do something about it!
Meh i've had enough...I still love all of you (some more than others...some...well i'll kick your ass one day!)...and I only say what I say in the way that I say it because I hate seeing people selling themselves short. I hate seeing people being afraid of what they believe in. Stand up and be heard! Don't spend your time feeling bad and sorry for yourself. Devote your energy to remaining positive, even in the darkest of times. You will survive and conquer...but only if you want too!
Take care and love to all!
PS: Yes i've given the game away in this article. I have devoted any spare time to fitness training and i've been making some good progress! I wont post up pics cos i'm still a little self concious...but my first goal is that by summer I'll be confident to run with my shirt off! hahaha
To those few that already knew...thanks for your understanding and support. To those that didn't...my apologies for being so distant over the last few months. I've just been really doing this for me and figured those that are my true friends will be there for me regardless...
Take care guys...
-Mark
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