Into the double figures....YEAH BITCHES!!!

Under 100kg!!! For the first time in over 5 years!!!

HA HA!!!

Seriously...it's been a hard slog, and contrary to popular belief, I hate training and dieting, but the changes are great, I feel better and I can deal with the shit times better. To overuse an old cliche, i've never felt better!

This is a stand...I can never go back to the way I used to be! Thanks to everyone whos encouraged me and stuck by me through these hard times. As of late, the hard times have been more frequent, and I haven't been able to come through for so many people and I'm sorry, but I appreciate everyone's patience with me.

In regards to the shitfight i've been having, I'm coming around to figuring out where i'm going with it. I've got a solution at least and will hopefully be making a move on it. I'm sorry to everyone who this affected (unintentionally) and will hopefully make it up to everyone!

It feels SO good to type something positive after so much negative.

Also just posting out a shoutout to Dee ... congrats girl on your new gig! If you wanna catch this girl she'll be burnin up the floor for lollipop every second Saturday!

Thats about it for now...just thought i'd better post something up while I had it in my head at work. Take care everyone and god bless!

Much love!

-muffinman

seriously...

fuck this shit...unbelievable...how many times do i have to be tested? what did i do wrong?













fuck i really wish i knew what to do next...i really wish i had someone to be there for me...













:(

Being continually tested and true friends...

What a last couple of days...













I wont bore you...but you guys should know that shit went down in the last few days. Chicks, money, work, cars...it all happened! I honestly couldnt believe it, it was just one shit thing after another...

However something was different this time ... Normally if anything didn't go my way, i'd behave like a little bitch (in that it would be obvious that I'd be pissed off), but I didn't ... not when I made the discovery about the girl, not when work pushed me into a corner, not when my car decided to break down in the middle of traffic ...

I am changing ... I am learning to just deal with whatever is thrown my way. I understand my msn name (my old one anyway about how the difference between normal and great people is that great people know how to build a good structure from the bricks others throw at them).

I was able to think calm, act clearly, and shit even share a laugh with some good friends (there's nothing funnier than walking home with friends after your car has broken down hahaha).

I wanna thank my boys that helped me out last night...it was a pretty tough night for me, but I couldn't imagine anyone else i'd rather have by my side...my soldiers! hahaha

Thanks go out to (in no particular order), Sherwin, Chris, Ralph, Tim and Louis! I will never be able to repay you for what you guys did for me...I can only hope I offer as much back to you in my life!

PS: Movember is coming up and I will be participating this year (yes I know i'm asian and I don't have much facial hair lol)...its for a good cause, so stay tuned to this space for updates!

PSS: I've started a video blog. I will post this up soon, it's called the nutHour...stay tuned to this space!

Love ya'll...peace out!

My fight with spite... SELF CENSORED...

I wrote something here ... and i've decided to take it down ...

Why? It just felt like quite a leap into my deep personal fight with myself...my struggle...basically if i was my own enemy, I outlined ways you could push my buttons.

I have saved the draft and I'll prob post it up later...but I really want to read it and re-word it...I say something about there being no filter between my brain and my brain...this also exist (or doesn't exist) between my brain and my fingers.

I just dont feel ready to share that side of me...not just yet...it's scary and I hate dealing with it on a daily basis, but I do...and i'm not prepared just yet to describe my motivation.

I hope you understand and I hope you don't get discouraged from reading my blog. I believe I have always been honest with you guys ... and tonight I feel I was at my most honest.

Stay tuned guys...I will repost...

Thanks for understanding.