and i'm still standing hehehe
Just wanted to say i'm going well and going hard. Had a bit of an iffy week just trying to get through all the crap going on (it just doesn't change and it just doesn't get any easier) but I feel like i'm able to deal with it a little better than I was say 3 months ago.
I'm making some positive progress too...without giving the game away too much (but pretty much giving it away hehehe) ... actually no hehehe :P
I'll be taking pictures soon to show some of my progress...guaranteed to have them up before the end of the month!
In the mean time ... may I wish everyone good times and strength in adversity. Stay strong and endure!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Lemonade...that cool refreshing drink...
bgm
Passion: Lemonade - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_7HW1WUcFR0
(has nothing to do with my post...but its a nice song!)
They say when the world gives you lemons...make lemonade. To make good out of anything bad sent your way. This is all about training your perspective to adapt to any situation and learn how you can benefit from it.
I'll be the first to raise my hand and say I wasn't good at this. Hell that's the whole reason I started this blog. However, I didn't know what direction I wanted to go in and change...to be honest I didn't even know how to start!
Well I finally got that start...unfortunately it came about through the suffering of another mate, but with his help and the encouragement of others, I've made firm decisions about myself and where I'm heading and I truly feel I'm heading in the right direction.
I don't want to share what I'm doing just yet...some of you know, some of you don't realise what I'm doing...but you will be surprised. As with all things, this will take time, dedication and lots of hard work from me.
For this, I apologise to everyone for the ambiguity of my actions and for seeming so distant from all of you for the time being, but this is the move I've been needing to make!
I guess as this is a blog and you're probably looking for a bit of insight (least I'd like to think you were...that's if anyone actually reads this hehehe) so I wont disappoint.
First of all...understand your values and beliefs...and never live up to anyone else's. This way you cannot be let down by others...stay true to your values and really believe in them...don't let anyone waiver you from the path!
Secondly, give yourself something to get you out of bed every morning. To excite you. I know everyone says to write goals...but I'm telling you to write something above and beyond what you think your limits are. Imagine your a kid sitting on Santa's lap (no not like that you dirty b@stards) and imagine that no wish is to big! Write it on a piece of paper write it in big writing! Put it in a place where you will look at it everyday and read it to yourself at least twice a day...really feel it and really believe that you will achieve it. Soon you will have it in your mind and you will not be able to stop thinking about it. You will find your mind subconsciously controlling your body to do things in order to achieve this goal!
I have done these two things, amongst other things, but I refuse to bore you any longer hehehe.
I will also add a little comment on my perspective from the end of each post. I feel that things are taking a good turn, but am I working ever hard for it. I can feel the changes coming and I really hope I can stick to it!
Oh...and for anyone that cares...I haven't been suspended from uni this semester and am now back! hahaha I guarantee I wont fail this class a third time LOL!
Alright i'm out ... take care guys!
-muffinman
Passion: Lemonade - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_7HW1WUcFR0
(has nothing to do with my post...but its a nice song!)
They say when the world gives you lemons...make lemonade. To make good out of anything bad sent your way. This is all about training your perspective to adapt to any situation and learn how you can benefit from it.
I'll be the first to raise my hand and say I wasn't good at this. Hell that's the whole reason I started this blog. However, I didn't know what direction I wanted to go in and change...to be honest I didn't even know how to start!
Well I finally got that start...unfortunately it came about through the suffering of another mate, but with his help and the encouragement of others, I've made firm decisions about myself and where I'm heading and I truly feel I'm heading in the right direction.
I don't want to share what I'm doing just yet...some of you know, some of you don't realise what I'm doing...but you will be surprised. As with all things, this will take time, dedication and lots of hard work from me.
For this, I apologise to everyone for the ambiguity of my actions and for seeming so distant from all of you for the time being, but this is the move I've been needing to make!
I guess as this is a blog and you're probably looking for a bit of insight (least I'd like to think you were...that's if anyone actually reads this hehehe) so I wont disappoint.
First of all...understand your values and beliefs...and never live up to anyone else's. This way you cannot be let down by others...stay true to your values and really believe in them...don't let anyone waiver you from the path!
Secondly, give yourself something to get you out of bed every morning. To excite you. I know everyone says to write goals...but I'm telling you to write something above and beyond what you think your limits are. Imagine your a kid sitting on Santa's lap (no not like that you dirty b@stards) and imagine that no wish is to big! Write it on a piece of paper write it in big writing! Put it in a place where you will look at it everyday and read it to yourself at least twice a day...really feel it and really believe that you will achieve it. Soon you will have it in your mind and you will not be able to stop thinking about it. You will find your mind subconsciously controlling your body to do things in order to achieve this goal!
I have done these two things, amongst other things, but I refuse to bore you any longer hehehe.
I will also add a little comment on my perspective from the end of each post. I feel that things are taking a good turn, but am I working ever hard for it. I can feel the changes coming and I really hope I can stick to it!
Oh...and for anyone that cares...I haven't been suspended from uni this semester and am now back! hahaha
Alright i'm out ... take care guys!
-muffinman
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Fight or Flight...
Butterflies in your stomach, giddyness, it's all the same...it's that feeling you get when you know somethings on the line.
I don't get to experience this feeling too much, due to the mundane job I usually carry out on a daily basis, however on the off occasion I do manage to get myself into these situations.
Funnily enough I just did...right then...like seriously 30 minutes ago!
It was one of those...sounded like a good idea at the time.
I wonder how i'm going to go with this...been a while since I been down this road...
Will let you know...wish me luck!
I don't get to experience this feeling too much, due to the mundane job I usually carry out on a daily basis, however on the off occasion I do manage to get myself into these situations.
Funnily enough I just did...right then...like seriously 30 minutes ago!
It was one of those...sounded like a good idea at the time.
I wonder how i'm going to go with this...been a while since I been down this road...
Will let you know...wish me luck!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
RIP Lola A...God said well done...
bgm: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eczNekGhDxM
24th June 2008
As I remember her...
My earliest memories of Lola as a kid was being dropped off with the other cousins to be baby sat during the holidays. Lola A and Tita Katu would cook breakfast for us and we would watch TV in their tiny little room...looking back we wonder how it used to house all of us so comfortably...
I remember Lola always giving us lollies and maccas burgers back when they used to be served in styrofoam packaging and for some reason carnation milk would always be served to us with Milo...
I remember Lola always smiling...from back then till now, even when she didn't recognise us. She was always happy to see us, to be around us, to take care of us. A lady whos faith for God and love for her family never waivered and was so contagious.
She survived almost all of her kids, two world wars and countless other riff raffs.
I hope those that knew her don't mourn in pain...if anything, we should learn from her that we should just smile, be happy that God blessed us with her presence and that she was able to be with us for 105 years! Smiling is the key to a long and happy life and I believe she was a great advocate of that.
Rest In Peace Lola...we will love and remember you always!
24th June 2008
As I remember her...
My earliest memories of Lola as a kid was being dropped off with the other cousins to be baby sat during the holidays. Lola A and Tita Katu would cook breakfast for us and we would watch TV in their tiny little room...looking back we wonder how it used to house all of us so comfortably...
I remember Lola always giving us lollies and maccas burgers back when they used to be served in styrofoam packaging and for some reason carnation milk would always be served to us with Milo...
I remember Lola always smiling...from back then till now, even when she didn't recognise us. She was always happy to see us, to be around us, to take care of us. A lady whos faith for God and love for her family never waivered and was so contagious.
She survived almost all of her kids, two world wars and countless other riff raffs.
I hope those that knew her don't mourn in pain...if anything, we should learn from her that we should just smile, be happy that God blessed us with her presence and that she was able to be with us for 105 years! Smiling is the key to a long and happy life and I believe she was a great advocate of that.
Rest In Peace Lola...we will love and remember you always!
Friday, June 20, 2008
stop the angry juice...
yeah i thought i was fine...
yeah i thought I was in control of myself...
but the more in control i thought i was, the more I wasn't...
how stupid for me to end up in this situation...
ahh my body can't handle this abuse anymore...
saw some cool things today though...
and learnt some neato stuff...
but i through it all away...
damn i hate being drunk...
yeah i thought I was in control of myself...
but the more in control i thought i was, the more I wasn't...
how stupid for me to end up in this situation...
ahh my body can't handle this abuse anymore...
saw some cool things today though...
and learnt some neato stuff...
but i through it all away...
damn i hate being drunk...
Thursday, June 12, 2008
It rains heavy ... but at least our farmers will be happy!
For the last month, i've been living my life a week at a time ...
Correction ... i've been wishing my life away a week at a time ...
Why?
Because it all seemed too hard? Because I felt out of control?
Possibly...
Don't worry...i'm not here to whinge about whats happened and whos fault it was.
This is more a declaration...a change of times, or even more fitting, a change of perspective. I don't know why i'm writting this down or why I am telling anyone this. The only person who will truly understand the fruits born from efforts made is myself.
I guess this is more of a public diary. Hopefully a testimony/sign of hope for those that have been through the hard times, whatever they have been ... that things can get better if you permit it too. That in reality, things aren't always as bad as they seem ...
My path to happiness may or may not be the right one. It may work for me and may not work for others and vice versa, but I assure you that happiness and success is a state of mind which can be adjusted and manipulated to suit your reality.
Don't worry. I'm not on any mind altering drugs or have joined a cult. I'm just on a mission to ensure I take care of business and get back on my feet.
I'm going to put together some thought provoking sayings that you can all hopefully use to adjust your perspective so that you too may find the right path to happiness and success...
1a) Take care of number one ... 1b) You are number one
2) With every negative, there exists a positive ... Ying and Yang
3) Look after the family ... the life cycle always wins
4) Make the effort to catch up with friends
5) I don't know is not an answer ...
Thats all for now. I don't know how long this will last but I'm down for a change. Change for what? I don't know, but it's time to pull my head out of my ass and starting going for it!
Alright ... i'm outtie guys! Take care of yourselves!
-muffinman
Correction ... i've been wishing my life away a week at a time ...
Why?
Because it all seemed too hard? Because I felt out of control?
Possibly...
Don't worry...i'm not here to whinge about whats happened and whos fault it was.
This is more a declaration...a change of times, or even more fitting, a change of perspective. I don't know why i'm writting this down or why I am telling anyone this. The only person who will truly understand the fruits born from efforts made is myself.
I guess this is more of a public diary. Hopefully a testimony/sign of hope for those that have been through the hard times, whatever they have been ... that things can get better if you permit it too. That in reality, things aren't always as bad as they seem ...
My path to happiness may or may not be the right one. It may work for me and may not work for others and vice versa, but I assure you that happiness and success is a state of mind which can be adjusted and manipulated to suit your reality.
Don't worry. I'm not on any mind altering drugs or have joined a cult. I'm just on a mission to ensure I take care of business and get back on my feet.
I'm going to put together some thought provoking sayings that you can all hopefully use to adjust your perspective so that you too may find the right path to happiness and success...
1a) Take care of number one ... 1b) You are number one
2) With every negative, there exists a positive ... Ying and Yang
3) Look after the family ... the life cycle always wins
4) Make the effort to catch up with friends
5) I don't know is not an answer ...
Thats all for now. I don't know how long this will last but I'm down for a change. Change for what? I don't know, but it's time to pull my head out of my ass and starting going for it!
Alright ... i'm outtie guys! Take care of yourselves!
-muffinman
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