just a quick update before the year is out...

hi all...

my apologies i haven't blogged in a while. been busy with work (got promoted...yay me!) and thats been taking up to 12+ hours for the last few weeks. i did some caroling for our firm as well (i'll post some pics up) and i had my work x'mas party last week which took it out of me (slept in the office i was that bad!!!)

anyway...just wanted to let you all know (not that any of you care really...i mean...i hardly do lol) but it's x'mas again! hahaha you know what that means...lots of eating, lots of drinking, lots of good times ahead! i'll do a proper x'mas blog and vlog (oh yes son...i do a vlog now! will link!)

also...i've just run from my local train station (rockdale) to my place in 11 minutes. i've now set a benchmark. watch this space...i intend on improving!

anyway...i'm off...take it easy yo!

much luv...

-muffinman

Well...

*twiddling thumbs*


















I wish I could find the right words to say, I wish I could show you exactly how I felt...I wish that time would stand still to let us enjoy the moment...

If it means anything...I miss you...





AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
















sunset

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

YEAH SUCK ON THAT ONE BITCHES!!! hahahaha

sorry I haven't updated much lately...i've just been goin crazy with this shit and other things.

In other news, I have been jamming a whole lot lately and got some really cool jams down...here is something I prepared earlier (and by I, I mean Dee and C!)



click on it and comment, subscribe as my boy chris will continue putting up our jam videos! (you can also catch his blog in the sidebar!)

aight...thats it for now...gonna get back into my training again tomorrow, and gotta work on my otherside project: nuthour! will update you guys on that soon! :D

take care now, bye bye then! :D

-muffinman














ps: sunset...

Into the double figures....YEAH BITCHES!!!

Under 100kg!!! For the first time in over 5 years!!!

HA HA!!!

Seriously...it's been a hard slog, and contrary to popular belief, I hate training and dieting, but the changes are great, I feel better and I can deal with the shit times better. To overuse an old cliche, i've never felt better!

This is a stand...I can never go back to the way I used to be! Thanks to everyone whos encouraged me and stuck by me through these hard times. As of late, the hard times have been more frequent, and I haven't been able to come through for so many people and I'm sorry, but I appreciate everyone's patience with me.

In regards to the shitfight i've been having, I'm coming around to figuring out where i'm going with it. I've got a solution at least and will hopefully be making a move on it. I'm sorry to everyone who this affected (unintentionally) and will hopefully make it up to everyone!

It feels SO good to type something positive after so much negative.

Also just posting out a shoutout to Dee ... congrats girl on your new gig! If you wanna catch this girl she'll be burnin up the floor for lollipop every second Saturday!

Thats about it for now...just thought i'd better post something up while I had it in my head at work. Take care everyone and god bless!

Much love!

-muffinman

seriously...

fuck this shit...unbelievable...how many times do i have to be tested? what did i do wrong?













fuck i really wish i knew what to do next...i really wish i had someone to be there for me...













:(

Being continually tested and true friends...

What a last couple of days...













I wont bore you...but you guys should know that shit went down in the last few days. Chicks, money, work, cars...it all happened! I honestly couldnt believe it, it was just one shit thing after another...

However something was different this time ... Normally if anything didn't go my way, i'd behave like a little bitch (in that it would be obvious that I'd be pissed off), but I didn't ... not when I made the discovery about the girl, not when work pushed me into a corner, not when my car decided to break down in the middle of traffic ...

I am changing ... I am learning to just deal with whatever is thrown my way. I understand my msn name (my old one anyway about how the difference between normal and great people is that great people know how to build a good structure from the bricks others throw at them).

I was able to think calm, act clearly, and shit even share a laugh with some good friends (there's nothing funnier than walking home with friends after your car has broken down hahaha).

I wanna thank my boys that helped me out last night...it was a pretty tough night for me, but I couldn't imagine anyone else i'd rather have by my side...my soldiers! hahaha

Thanks go out to (in no particular order), Sherwin, Chris, Ralph, Tim and Louis! I will never be able to repay you for what you guys did for me...I can only hope I offer as much back to you in my life!

PS: Movember is coming up and I will be participating this year (yes I know i'm asian and I don't have much facial hair lol)...its for a good cause, so stay tuned to this space for updates!

PSS: I've started a video blog. I will post this up soon, it's called the nutHour...stay tuned to this space!

Love ya'll...peace out!

My fight with spite... SELF CENSORED...

I wrote something here ... and i've decided to take it down ...

Why? It just felt like quite a leap into my deep personal fight with myself...my struggle...basically if i was my own enemy, I outlined ways you could push my buttons.

I have saved the draft and I'll prob post it up later...but I really want to read it and re-word it...I say something about there being no filter between my brain and my brain...this also exist (or doesn't exist) between my brain and my fingers.

I just dont feel ready to share that side of me...not just yet...it's scary and I hate dealing with it on a daily basis, but I do...and i'm not prepared just yet to describe my motivation.

I hope you understand and I hope you don't get discouraged from reading my blog. I believe I have always been honest with you guys ... and tonight I feel I was at my most honest.

Stay tuned guys...I will repost...

Thanks for understanding.